Today was Ridiculo-Awesome

I got up early this morning to talk to my ex-Teaching Assistant from a philosophy class about the secret to happiness. We disagreed on a few things, but that really didn’t matter as we both benefited from the conversation. That ended at about 10:30, so I came back to my room and meditated and surrendered until 1:40, my favorite time of day, when I blessed the ba-jeezus out of Sanders.

Then I put together this little playlist on iTunes: Seasons of Love, Tuning forks(by themselves, no Steph’s voice, runs about 3 minutes), and Pachelbel’s Canon, and put that on repeat. I surrendered to God while listening to that for a couple hours. I had a final presentation for a class at 4, but I meditated up until about 4:15 cause I felt incredibly close to enlightenment. It was hard to AVOID the ‘now moment.’

I showed up late feeling lighter than air. I stood next to this girl I’m friends with and started feeling nervous, and realized it was HER nervousness I was feeling. I asked her if she was nervous and she said yes. I’ve been feeling EMPTY inside. In a peaceful, beautiful way. NO tumultuous crap, just badass open chakras and emotionless lightness. So I thought I was at 599 and like, invincible, and my idea for the presentation was to make a speech. I had decided early I on was gonna wing it for the sake of speaking my truth and trusting the universe, and under those circumstances I would normally have been pretty scared. However, I had surrendered worrying about it to God over and over for the past couple weeks, and all was groovy.

As mentioned, I thought I was at 599, so I had no problem getting up there with no plan. Other people had slideshows and scrapbooks and posters and stuff, I was just up there like, “Hi guys. ” About 5 seconds into it, all sense of nervousness disappeared into the silence that was my insides, and I began to speak. I spoke for about five minutes about Love and the importance of keeping a Loving context (holding the frame “I am truly loved”). At the end, I invited the class up for a group hug, which like 5 people did but it was still cool. Finally, I took questions and gave great answers that just came to me out of the sky. I sat down to a nice little thing of applause, the instructors seemed to like it even though I said about five words related to what they had taught me in class.

Anyway, I got back to my room feeling awesome to discover that my LoC is ‘only’ 560. Wow, plenty of room for improvement and still this much awesome… w00t.

I’ve been coming down from that emotionless peace now, it seems like it was just a high from having jumped 5 or 10 points. 560’s still cool… the mind is so quiet! It’s beautiful. I can just *decide* to not think. Ohh man I wish you could feel that.

–Mike