Academia and Willingness

These days, I’ve been more aware of the non-importance of what we so commonly refer to as “life.” I look left and right and see people stressing out and thinking and worrying and running and crying and working. I look up and see the incomprehensibly vast expanses of the universe, dotted with stars at incredible distances. I am reminded: none of this shit matters! I can drop out of college, I can live as a hobo all my life and none of it will matter! People’s feelings may be hurt, but that doesn’t matter either! And it’s not my fault that they don’t realize how non-serious life is! Their feelings are their responsibility, there’s no reason to feel hurt about anything, ever! What a joyous realization.

IdeaGasms is EXPLODING! And so am I

Why I still support Stephane and ideaGams

Dr. David R. Hawkins has written that above a certain level of consciousness, that of authentic Lovingness, “that which is non-loving arises to be surrendered.” As true Lovingness becomes your dominant subjective state, repressed blockages to love surface in conscious awareness to be integrated and healed, so that Love can become unconditional.

Basically, most of us, including you and me, go around our daily lives thinking we’re pretty nice people. We don’t do too many drugs, get in too many fights, piss off too many people, or make too many waves. But we judge ourselves and each other like crazy. Every time someone does something, we look at the action and the person and say to ourselves, “That action was bad, that person is bad, I am angry!”

But that anger and judgment is only a projection of our own unacknowledged inner demons. If we fully understand the context around the other person’s life and actions, we have understanding and compassion for them, and no judgments or negative emotions arise. In addition, when we make mistakes with this understanding and compassion, we no longer get angry at ourselves, because we clearly see that we’re doing our best and that we are ultimately innocent in the eyes of God.

I can’t know for sure, but I have a feeling that Stephane is at a very high level of Love and self-acceptance, where every day his darkest inner demons come out and he has to accept them all fully and have compassion for himself. That which is non-loving in him is arising to be processed, integrated, healed, and let go of.

This is an experience I can’t even imagine right now. There’s no way I can truly understand the reasons he does the things he does. I don’t doubt that the stories people tell about him are based in truth. However, I do doubt that these stories mean Stephane is a ‘bad’ or untrustworthy person. I think he’s fighting the good fight harder than literally 99% of all humans, and the troubles he faces regularly frighten you and me so much that we do everything in our power to keep them in our unconscious minds all day long.

Thank you for reading this far, and if any of this resonates with you, I invite you to join me in saying, “I don’t know what you’re up to, Steph, but I trust you, and I can’t wait to hear about your discoveries. Update your blog more!”

P.S. This is not an invitation to throw away your discernment and follow anyone blindly. Even Buddha said, “One should not accept anything with mere faith; one should use one’s common sense and intelligence before accepting anything.”

Ride on, Steph and Greta!

Blessings,
–Mike Elias

A Heavy Flow Day

Last night all the dining halls were closed, so I ended up sharing a microwave pad thai with my neighbor. We ended up getting into a philosophical/spiritual type of discussion that lasted a few hours. I’ve been reading a lot of Osho lately and that came up several times. Anyway, funny how things work out. And then last night I was reading about being the sky through which clouds (thoughts, emotions, sensations) pass, that ultimately remains unchanged. I suppose I fell asleep with the thought, “I am the sky” somewhere in my head because I remember waking up a few times with a sense of great inner peace. Not like “altered state” peace, but pretty close. It seems as though in order to reach that bliss, my brain has to be so tired and barely active that I can’t really think. This great feeling would happen when I’d refocus my awareness on awareness itself, AND I was just barely awake/alert.

Naked Time!

Wow, there’s something to this whole “getting naked” thing. I’ve found it on multiple occasions to be a wonderful way to quickly feel very near total self-acceptance. I was lying in bed today at about 4, feeling stagnation, that pervasive boredom that comes when I haven’t been evolving as a person. I had just finished reading something and I was about to have a conscious wank (that is, masturbate while observing the sensations rather than getting lost in them, so as to become more aware of life rather than to escape it) and take a nap when I realized I was hungry. So the question quickly became, how can I grow as a person while feeding myself? Simple: Go get food, naked.

Enough bullshit, It’s honesty time.

I call myself a philosophy major because I’m interested in truth and love and life. What they teach here is not truth, love, or life. Just argument about bullshit. All the arguments are based on third person objectivity and reason, and they all end when they reach the edge of the spiritual realm. And people find it so frustrating that all the arguments lead to the same place, and that place can’t be scientifically proven! Oh, the horror! Something exists that we can’t prove and write on a piece of paper and masturbate to!