You may have noticed that all of my old content is gone. This is because I didn’t like it anymore.:) I made it all “pending review” so that I still have it but it’s not published. But I’m gonna start posting here again, so yippee.
Months ago, I started a blog called Wisdom I Don’t Have. Here’s what I wrote on the About page, which I really like:
I’ve often had the feeling that by describing my realizations and insights, I diminish their personal significance. However, I’m often inspired to share my little ‘aha!’ moments (also known as “ideagasms”). Perhaps I’m inspired to share for a reason, and perhaps the verbalization of insights diminishes them because they weren’t true insights.
A true insight is a new identity. An expansion of your sense of self. A permanent change in perspective.
Such a thing could never be diminished so easily. However, an idea that seems special can quickly lose its significance when it becomes apparent that it is only an idea, and not one of these fundamental shifts. Ideas can be important in facilitating true insights and spiritual evolution, but in order to truly know anything, it must become part of your identity. Therefore, nothing that is truly known can be put into words.
If only I truly knew that.
I barely wrote in it, and I missed having MY blog, with MY name in the URL and whatnot. I am actually pretty annoyed and angry at myself for not practicing what I preach, and therefore my ‘knowledge’ of spirituality is largely superficial, theoretical, and speculative, but it’s all I’ve got, and some of it is actually pretty cool so maybe you’ll like it.
Here’s my homecoming post: Why Microwaves, Fluorescent Light Bulbs, and Digital Music are Evil
EDIT: I’m gonna bring all my old content back, and I’m never gonna delete another post due to shame again. I am embarrassed by who I was back then, or at least how I wrote, but since I’m still not much less of an idiot the best service I can provide is proof that idiots can improve (which I hope to do), so that future generations can look at my early posts and say “Wow, the legendary Mike Elias was a dumb teenager,” and be more compassionate with their dumb teenage kids in turn. I suppose since I’m not wise enough to convey a true message in any particular post, I’ll let this entire blog be a message of “It’s okay to be human,” because Lord is that ever what I need to hear.
EDIT 2: I just gave my blog a new title. When I sat down to write it, I decided on “Mike Elias’s Blog: Subject to Change,” because the one thing I’m always doing with this blog is moving shit around, removing hundreds of posts at a time (see above), putting them back where they were (see above), changing the colors, etc. Then knowing that this is mostly a blog about spirituality, I realized that “subject” means “that which sees,” as in the “subject vs object” distinction. Since “the subject” is what each of us truly is (that out of which consciousness arises), and what I intend to do is grow spiritually, I’m literally on a mission to change the subject. Ironically, that which each of us truly is cannot actually change, so perhaps the title should be “Mike Elias’s Blog: Subject to Change–And Not.”
EDIT 3: Holy SHIT I’m self-indulgent. 
All that talk about ‘me’ this, “I” that. Who cares? Probably not you! *shrug*
